Eternity

You, O LORD created me

so I'm alive.

I'm alive!!

And I have been redeemed!

This means, I'll live for eternity!

What is eternity?

I thought about it for many days

some days, the thought hurt my head,

and some days, the thought caused tears.

FOREVER.

That is eternity.

However, we do not know or understand that.

It is outside of time.

I'll never die, technically speaking. 

I will live forever. 

Think about it. 

I used to only think about my time on earth.

Heaven was just a place for me

that I was going to after I died. 

But a week ago,

my mind was opened to reality.

No one that I've talked to

understood my train of thought. 

My thoughts about eternity

caused me to marvel at my existence.

That once I'm created, 

I'm never going to disappear.

Whether I go to Hell

or Heaven,

I will always exist.

We don't just live and then disappear.

Like I can't believe I'm alive!

That God created me

so that I can live for an eternity!

Once you can grasp that idea,

your eyes open up to your real destination.

People tell you to live for the eternity that's coming.

You believe it because it makes sense spiritually,

and it sounds spiritual. 

However, do you understand what that means??

Look at the timeline of your life,

of the time that your soul will be existing.

Life on earth can be wiped off by a single pass of a nail file

across the tip of your longest nail. 

Eternity is the universe compared to those molecules

that got filed off.

Do you kind of see the significance of your eternal life/existence?

Your life now, DOESN'T MATTER.

Your life in Eternity, DOES MATTER.

And that's why we should be filled with love and compassion

for those on the road to eternal death. 

We should put ourselves out there

to let God use us as His vessels

so that many more can escape the unbearable

eternal death. 

And we will be with God for Eternity,

we do not want to be regretting our decisions
when we go before the LORD,
before His judgement seat.


I have started being more aware of what is going on
relating to my actions to the thoughts that go on
inside my head.
I have taken captive the thoughts
that do not bring glory to Christ,
the thoughts that are sinful and selfish.
Knowing my destination and my goal
has given me confidence to live my
life for the LORD.
To dedicate every decision that I make to Him.


I encourage you to ask the LORD
for wisdom when trying to understand your
destination.
So that you too, can change how you live,
how you think,
and how you relate with others.
So that you can make sure that you are
prepared for that coming eternity.

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Christmas Wishes To My Family

This is the card I made my family for Christmas. I had to show them first before publishing it. My family means so much to me and even my wishes cannot put to words how precious they are!

Dearest Family,

How shall I begin?

Should I tell you how blessed I am to be 

a part of this family?

Should I tell you how much I truly love you all?

How much you mean to me?

How I'm so lucky to be raised in a Christian home?

How mommy and daddy, you have brought me up with love 

and how fortunate I am?

How dear siblings, you are amazing,

and I love your many nicknames?

Oh all these things I want to tell you!

But there is so much more to say!

Let me begin by addressing each one of you.

Dear Mommy,

you are so strong. 

You are so strong. 

I've thought before that you are wrong sometimes,

but I've truly realized that mothers do know best.

And when you say that you know everything,

there is so much truth to that.

So many times I fail to realize just how loving and caring you are.

That when you punish me, 

it is a way of protecting me,

shaping me into a better person.

I am however, the issue.

For in my teen years I am stubborn,

and all I care about is "me". 

I want to enjoy life.

But what I fail to see is that there are different ways to enjoy life.

And if I continuously enjoy life 

without any care for my future,

there will be no enjoyment in the future.

I can see you struggling to help me,

trying to make me see what you see, 

preparing me for what I cannot see,

but what you have previously experienced.

You make sure to guide me in the way that is the LORD's.

There are many things that I have learned from you

and I just want to tell you that I am trying,

I'm trying to do what you're telling me to.

It might look like I'm not caring,

but I do try.

I think about your words continuously

and when I fail you, 

I do feel terrible.

You love God so much and I can't say how happy it makes me

when I see that you are encouraging your friends to study

His Word further. 

You are a brilliant woman, 

so full of knowledge.

I look at you and think if I'll ever be as knowing as you.

You are a mother who can help with my confusing homework,

who encourages me to work towards my goals,

who tells me that I'm capable of so much

if I only try.

You set limits for me

that I never knew I could reach.

I would not have achieved what I have achieved

without you.

I love you so much mommy.

"She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks."

Proverbs 31:17

Dear Daddy,

you are so loving and caring, 

and not to mention very comic.

I look forward to your coming home every night, 

so that you could throw in a few lame jokes

that make me laugh so hard. 

You are very easy going and you love the LORD.

You have a passion for deep studies and the 

things you have taught me and my siblings

are amazing. 

You always encourage us to study our Bibles further,

to not just read,

but to understand and question.

You have such a kind heart and what you've done in your work,

to support our family just amazes me.

You don't only inspire my sister,

but you inspire me. 

To have the peace that you have.

You have made sure that our household was one

that honoured the LORD.

You express your love for me so greatly every day,

I do not know if I am even capable of doing the same for you.

You have lead and guided our family in the paths

that honour and glorify the LORD. 

Thank you daddy.

I love you.

"He who fears the LORD has a secure fortress, and for his children it will be a refuge."

Proverbs 14:26

Dear Sister,

where shall I begin?

Oh how I fail to realize just how much you love me!

Everyday you tell me how much you love me,

you care for me as a loving sister would care for her little sister.

You create so many memories.

and although you are not home all the time,

the times that you do come home are so precious.

I love you so much and I want you to know that.

I am sorry for my stubbornness,

you have an older sister instinct to be protective, 

and I fail to realize that. 

You have the gift of prayer dear sister.

You pray for everyone you know and

you've been doing it since you were two!

It has truly amazed me.

And to be honest with you,

I have been trying to pray like you

for I think it is a wonderful thing.

Please continue praying like you do.

I thank you so much that not only are you 

a wonderful sister,

but also a great friend. 

I love you so much.

"Say of your sisters, 'My loved one.'

Hosea 2:1

Dear Brother and Twin,

for the one who has been with me since the womb,

you are one of the greatest blessings I have received from the LORD.

You are not only wise,

but funny,

loving, 

and strong.

Oh how much you love the LORD!

You are bold and courageous for you just profess

your love for our God everywhere you go.

Not to mention that your raps are absolutely amazing

and deep.

You have a gift my brother.

You have a way of expressing very important things

through your raps that actually cause people to listen

and consider your words.

Continue writing raps dear twin,

and rapping them too!

They can truly change someone's life

and are a great way of glorifying our 

LORD and Saviour.

You are a brilliant man

and have a great heart.

I can't tell you just how much you mean to me.

I wish to grow much closer with you

and to learn from you.

You are one of the most obedient people 

I know and such a trusting friend.

Remember back when we would spend every moment together.

We are still those siblings,

and we are still best friends.

I love you so much my brother.
“Say of your brothers, ‘My people,”
Hosea 2:1

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Your Plans, Your Way

I find that sometimes I want things to go my way. That I have to make them happen. "Maybe they're part of God's will", is what I tell myself. I justify my actions through that reasoning. Truth is, we don't know God's will so why would we try to guess what it is when we know that we'll never understand His plans for us? And if what you're trying to make happen is part of God's will, then if you don't try, it'll happen in the end anyway because God will lead you in the way you should go. This is a very frustrating thing to keep in mind because we want things to happen according to our agendas that we don't care about what's on God's agenda.

Proverbs 16: 1-3
People may make plans in their minds,
but only the LORD can make them come true. 
You may believe you are doing right,
but the LORD will judge your reasons.
Depend on the LORD in whatever you do,
and your plans will succeed.

I find that the reason why we're so weak in letting God "take the wheel" is because we don't have enough trust in Him. We aren't dependent enough. We think that we can fix our problems ourselves and are scared of where God might take us when He fixes them for us. Sometimes even, it's because we're too selfish to want to stop sinning, or even give up our own plans for the LORD. We find comfort where we are although we ignore the pain, suffering, guilt and regret that come with our decision. We also tend to struggle with peace when we depend on our own plans. We get frustrated easily because so many things get in the way of our plans.

Isaiah 26: 3
You, LORD, give true peace 
to those who depend on you,
because they trust you.

There are those two words again: depend, and trust. When you depend on the LORD fully and have enough faith, your plans will succeed, as says Proverbs 16: 3. Now you might be thinking, "Wait a minute Anny, didn't you just tell me not to be so dependent on my plans?" And I did, but when you make God the LORD of your life, then your plans will be His plans. Do you see where I'm going?

Psalm 37:4
Delight yourself in the LORD,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Before I go on talking about this verse, let's break it up. What does it mean to delight yourself? It means to enjoy Him and to enjoy doing what He called you to do. To enjoy serving Him. So if you enjoy serving Him, then all your desires will come true. Let me use an analogy to help you understand what that looks like.

You just got into a relationship with the love of your life. You enjoy doing what they enjoy and you love to make them happy. You start wanting to do the things that they like to do because you just love them so much and love pleasing them. You don't care about what you used to want, now you want what they want.

This analogy may not be the best, but it kind of outlines the relationship situation that you would be in if you delighted yourself in the LORD. His desires become your desires. So they do come true in the end.

So in order to have this awesome type of relationship with your God, you need not to worry about your plans, your future, or your past. You need to work on understanding the Scriptures and what God wants from you. You need to study who God is. You can't go into a relationship without knowing who the other person really is. Finally, you need to live out what you are called  to live out. You need to do what's commanded of you in the Bible. This is very hard because there's a lot of pressure from the world to hide your Christian life, but when you start to grow your relationship with God, it'll be much easier to do what He wants you to do. Eventually, what you desire will match what God desires of you.

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The Story of the German Artist

Today at church, the teen Sunday school teacher told us an interesting story. This is what I can remember of it:

There was this German man who used to fight on the German army in WW2. He escaped the battle and ran away to another country. While he was there, he took up the job as a floor sweeper at a particular church. He worked this job his whole life. He never said a word, he just did his job. He would observe the people around him and their lives. All he did his whole life was sweep and observe. One day there was this really amazing evangelist, named Peter who came up to him and asked him a series of questions. “Where did you come from?” “What do you like to do?” “Tell me about your family” So the German man answered these questions and said that he used to be a painter in Germany. The evangelist was surprised. So he asked the man to paint his portrait. At first he was reluctant, but after much begging, he agreed. But he made the evangelist promise that he won’t look at it until it is completely finished. So Peter sat week after week as the painter painted his portrait. This took very long and many weeks had passed. Peter asked day after day if the painter was finished. He replied, “Almost, it’s just not quite finished”. So one day, as the painter was painting the evangelist, the evangelist’s wife was standing in the doorway and the painter didn’t see her. She saw the painting and shrieked. “This painting is horrible!!” The evangelist was confused. He asked to see the painting. The German painter replied, “Sure, but it’s still not finished”. When the evangelist saw the painting, he couldn’t believe his eyes. The painting looked terrible! He asked the painter why he had painted him that way. The painter replied, “all my life, I have been observing people and how they live. How they act everyday and what they do. I realized that it was the truth of God that made them as they are. So as I observed the people I wondered what they would be like without God, and this is what I see.” He finished motioning to the painting. 

                                                            (This is not the painting)

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Give All Of You

This is what “Worship” is:

• you coming before God in humility
• sacrifice of all that you are and have
• giving God ALL the glory
• mentioning of God’s attributes

The pre-requisite to worship is:

• we are in the holy place of God when we worship so we must have “Redemption”

Psalm 24:4:

Only those with clean hands and pure

hearts, 

who have not worshiped idols,

who have not made promises in the 

name of a false god.

When you worship, you are forgetting yourself and putting your focus on the LORD and what He has done, and you are also praising Him for all that He is. So what is forgetting yourself and giving your soul fully to God?

This, I think is a nice analogy to use when explaining to someone what it looks like to NOT give your full soul and life into the hands of Christ. Then the picture of what it should look like will be very clear.

It’s like you bought a house from someone who was selling it and was moving elsewhere. Once you sign the papers, it’s yours and you could do whatever you like with the house. But the previous owner who had sold his house and no longer owns it, constantly keeps coming back. They use your kitchen, your backyard, the family room, the bedrooms, even the shower! Sometimes even, they take your furniture and put it in their own new house and replace it with their old furniture. 

God is like the person who moved in. And we are the former owners. 

You give your soul to God when He redeems you. So if you hold anything back, then you’re claiming that part of your soul is still yours, although God is the permanent owner of every single part of your soul.  You cannot worship properly if you still take control over your life. 

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